LOVE CHAINS
IT'S HARD TO LET THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE GO
BECAUSE OF YOUR INSECURITIES
YET IT'S HARD TO RESIST
WHEN YOU WICH YOU COULD HAVE MORE
MAKES YOU WANNA BREAK FREE
I NEED STABILITY
I KNOW I'M STRONGER THAN THIS
BUT RIGHT NOW I FEEL SO WEAK
THERE'S GOT TO BE A BETTER WAY TO DEAL WITH MY FEELINGS
WHY DID I HAVE TO FALL IN LOVE?
I WONDER
SO INSTEAD I WRAP MY LOVE IN CHAINS
PRAYING GOD WILL KEEP ME FROM COMING UNDONE
CAREFUL NOT TO BECOME TOO ATTACHED
TO SOEMTHING I MIGHT, ONE DAY, NEED TO LET GO OF
SUCHA A BEAUTIFUL CREATURE YOU ARE
SO WHY AM I SO SELFISH?
PUTTING MYSELF BEFORE YOU
KNOWING LOVE FOR ME IS MINE TO KEEP
SOMETIMES I FEEL AS IF IM NOT SURE
WHILE YOU'RE ON THE PHONE
I LISTEN WITH PAIN IN MY HEART
AM I RIGHT TO STAY AND PRAY THAT IT WILL STOP?
OR SHOULD I LEAVE BEFORE IT HURTS ANY MORE
AS TIME GOES ON I STAY AND ENDURE
AND THAT FEELING I GET INSIDE
YOUR PRESENCE MAKES ME REALIZE
IT DOESNT MATTER
CASUE I DONT MIND DRINKING TEARS FOR WATER
SO I CONTINUE DOING ANYTHING IN THE WORLD
FOR YOU
JUST IGNORE THAT DEEP FEELING INSIDE
THAT IM HIDING
FOR ME
AM I RUNNING FROM THE TRUTH?
WHEN THE FACT OF THE MATTER IS
THINGS ARE AS THEY ARE
AND THERE AIN'G NOTHING I CAN DO
TO CHANGE THAT
SO I WRAP MY LOVE IN CHAINS
PRAYING GOD WILL KEEP ME FROM COMING UNDONE.
-tears for water
alicia keys-

alicia coulnd have said it better, i told you S.B as much as i want ot give up i can't... giving you up completely is commiting suicide for my heart!

MIND SEX


CONVERSATION
STIMULATION
GOOD TALK
MIND SEX
CAN YOU KEEP UP
ARE YOU SLEEPING
ON WHAT
I'VE SAID?
IT TAKES A WHOLE LOTTA MAN
TO UNDERSTAND
GOOD LOVE IN JUST
STIMULATION
CONVERSATION
GOOD TALK.

SO LET'S HAVE SEX
I WANNA MAKE LOVE
I'D RATHER GO TO HEAVEN
CAN YOU TAKE ME ABOUVE?
IT'S MIND SEX
CAN WE JSUT TALK
CAN YOU MAKE ME FEEL IT DEEP
WITHOUT THE PHYSICAL TOUCH?

TEARS FOR WATER
ALICIA KEYS

DAMN YOU!
DAMN YOU!
FOR GETTING INSIDE OF ME LIKE THIS
FOR MAKING ME LEAVE MY CELL
SO I WONT CALL
FOR MAKING ME FELL SO ELECTRIC
BY JUST ONE SIMPLE TOUCH
JUST THE SIMPLE STROKE
OF YOUR FINGER ON MY NECK.

DAMN YOU!
FOR WANTING ME SO BAD
THAT YOU MAKE ME WANT YOU
FOR TRYING TO BREAKE DOWN
MY CAREFULLY CONSTRUCTED TOUGH EXTERIOR
FOR TRYING TO GET CLOSE TO THE INTERIOR
DAMN YOU 3X!

DAMN YOU!
FOR EVEN MAKING ME WRITE THIS DOWN
FOR THINKING THIS LONG ABOUT THIS
ABOUT YOU

DAMN YOU!
FOR MAKING MY NEVER
TURN INTO A MAYBE
TURN INTO A NEVER SAY NEVER

-"TEARS FOR WATER"-
ALICIA KEYS

A mothers Prayer
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: "Chi Chi" Aventura
Now i lay you down to sleep
i pray thee lord your soul to keep
to guide you safely trough the nigh
to wake you up with the morning light.
If you should miss me dont you cry
ill always be by your side
cloe your eyes and fall asleep
you will see me in your dreams.

il thank the lord for your life
my heart and soul inside you
a gift from God to the world
thats how i see you.

now i lay you down to sleep
i pray the lord your soul to keep
to guide you safely trhough your life
to wake you up with the morning sun,
if you should miss me dont you cry
i will always be by yourside
Now close your eyes and fall asleep
i will see you in your dreams!
love mom


Something for those who lost there parents at a young age, wether you where 2 or 32 your parents always see you as a young one... they love you near and far, they are always watching you!

Beautiful
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: "angelito" aventura
its a beutiful thing
emotions running wild
nervousness, excitement
through out your body
cant think straight
you are in your own world

its a beutiful thing
eyes interlock
words are being said
indise your head
fingers over eahtothers skin
nothing but skin
nothing but you and me

its a beutiful thing
lips that share expression
the power of our hearts
the devotion of our souls
becoming one

its a beutiful thing making love to you !


You can decide what im talking about here, wehter its sex or emotions or nature, its still making love!

E.T.G
Mood:  not sure
EXTACY WHEN WE KISSED,
ROMANCE UPON MY LIPS,
ILLUSIONS INSIDE MY HEAD
KINDNESS FROM YOUR HEART,
NEVER DID I IMAGEN IT WOULD BE THIS WAY
A SIMPLE DREAM I ONCE HAD
HAS TUNRED INTO
ETENRAL FRIENDSHIP WITH NO
RAIN IN SIGHT AN
INSPERATION TO MY POETRY MY
KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR,
WHAT MORE COULD I HAVE ASKE, YOU ARE WHAT I PRAYED FOR YOU ARE WHAT I LET GO!


time can be cruel, yet sweet. i always figure every guy was an asshole, everyone that crossed my path was easy to read.. until this one guy asked for my name, and i gave him a hard time giving it to him...to my surprise he stayed around fo rthe last 3 yrs. in time i grew attached wanting to know him inside and out... yet after a while i didnt quite understand how to handle friendship and love together...i beilive in destiny, in faith. its like that saying goes "if you love them let them go, if they coem back then hold on forever, if they dotn then remember the memories"...this wont be the last poem ill write to you, its not even close to it.... youl always be "remarkable" my s.b!

FALL ASLEEP
Mood:  down
Now Playing: OUR SONG- AVENTURA
I WANT TO CLOSE MY EYS
CLOSE MY EYES AND DREAM
DREAM OF RAINBOWS AND ELFS
DREAM OF MY WEDDING DAY
A DAY OF HAPPINESS
ONE ILL NEVER SEE..

I WANT TO CLOSE MY EYES
CLOSE MY EYES AND LET GO
LET GO OF MY BORKEN HEART
A HEART MEANT TO LOVE
TO LOVE ALL THAT IS BEUTIFUL

I WANT TO CLOSE MY EYES
CLOSE MINUTE EYES FOR A MINUTE
A MINUTE WITH OUT PAIN
ME WHO IS SIMPLY TIRED
CLOSE MY EYS AND SLEEP!


im tired righ now, i want to sleep so baldy and pretend taht today never happend.... its my birthday a day where i should be greatfull im alive happy to exist, wich i am .. but whe ni make stupid desions that make me cry... i wonder whre my head is.. mayb eits to tired and it made a dision with out rest.. i should close my eyes and maybe tomorow my head will be clear....

5 MINUTES
COME WHAT MAY, GATTA LET GO
A NEW BEGGINING THAT STARTS WITH THE END
I CANT DO THIS NO LONGER, HELD ON FOR 3 YEARS
WAITED FOR HIS LOVE, WAITED TO HEAR FROM HIM
SOMEDAY WILL MEET AGAIN, SOMEDAY HILL LOVE ME
BUT COME THE NEW YEAR 2005,
ITS FRIENDSHIP ILL KEEP
ITS LOVE IM GIVING UP.
WHEN THE CLOCK STRIKES 12
TEARS WILL FALL SLOWLY DOWN MY HEART,
DREAMS WIL FADE,
ILLUSIONS WILL DISOLVE.
I JUST CANT GO ON LIKE THIS
I NEED MORE THAN JUST HUGGS,
INEED HIS KISSES, HIS LOVE,
ILL MISS HIM, I WONT FORGET THE FUN.
IT'S 11:55 PM, ALMOST THERE
COME WHAT MAY, ILL LET GO OF THIS LOVE FOR HIM
A NEW BEGGING WILL START IN 5,
HELL ALWAYS HAVE MY HEART...
ITS 12 NO MORE LOVE JUST FRIENDSHIP.

again you know who you are, maybe now youll understand the whole "we are just friends" deal.... told you i can say what i want in writting just dotn try to get it out of me in person...... =)

crazy how girls can care for a guy so easily, just feel it inside, yet its hard for us to accept friendship.... especially when the heart tries to take control lol.

E
LOVES THE GAME, SICK OR INJURED
HELL PLAY FORM HIS HEART
LOVES HIS CONTRY, PROUD OF HIS FLAG!
SWEET IN NATURE, CARING TOWARDS LIFE
KEEPS TO HIMSELF DOESNT TRUST JUST ANYONE
BUT GIVE HIM TIME AND HE MIGHT GIVE A KEY
NO HE IS NOT PERFECT, NO ONE IS
HE HAS FLAWS, HE HAS FEARS
HE HAS UNACCOMPLISHED DREAMS.
LISTENS WHEN HE WANTS TOO
IS THERE WHEN HE CAN, GOOD OR BAD.
IF YOU LEAVE THE RADIO ON
HE WILL SLOWLY FALL ALSEEP
HAND HIM THE TV CONTROL
HELL COMPROMISE.
HE GOES WHERE HE PLEASES, NO ONE CAN HOLD HIM
EASY TO LOVE HARD TO FORGET
HIS AN ANGEL AND A FRIEND TO ALL
HIS ONE O F A KIND, NOT LIKE THE REST
HIS NOT SOCCER BOY, HE'S NOT A "PLAYR"
HIS SIMPLY "E", YUP ONE OF A KIND..


you know who you are.. at least i hope you know who im talking about...

Across The Door
" it's okay don't cry
im alright, no more pain
all has been forgotten
I wasnt happy there
always felt alone, useless..
sure i had friends and family
but no love, no real future
couldnt lie to myself
i had to go
dotn worry
when you are ready
ill be here,
a welcome mat awaits
we will remeber our good times
you wil see there is nothing to fear
happiness will soround us.
In the mean time...
continue with out me
i ask only to be remember
for you to enjoy what I never did

Dont cry, im alrit
iwasnt happy there
ill see yu soon
when you cross the door
i will be there
with open arms and a welcome smile...


She was turnig 18 when she was diegnosed with aids. All she ever wanted was the tipical latino stuff you know wedding, kids dogs big family reunions with the whole carne asada... She was in and out of hospitals, did hte kimo and helped me a just to the hospital scene the first time i got there.... i never imagen that i would be the one writtn her farewalle speech....
it wasnt easy but the day i finished it was the day she passed away.. crazy huh?